Little Miss Chuckles' Some Place To Whine

I have no idea why but it seems like posts and entries and articles everywhere kept reminding me from my recent lost of one very virtue friendship. Ah but not to relate it to any awkward situations I actually encountered recently. So before I even started the post, I'll have to claim that this has NOTHING to do with guys. So it's just basically some girl's problem.

(I'd like to quote my cousin here but I'm not sure if he'll like me to do so. All the words are just like a loud "BANG" in my head and I started to see things a lil' differently.)


Maybe it's always better to confess your feelings rather than hiding them.

Maybe it's just hard to see if the someone you held most preciously see you as precious as thee.


I'm confused. And I shall be confused. As you can never know accurately how others feel and think. I felt guilt, shameful and frustrated every time I doubted her intentions, whether all her acts are out of her consciousness, or vice versa. I precioused all my friends. I trusted them all and was never hesitant to expose the true me, never tried to hide myself. But some painful experiences just made me wonder, if it's always worthy to do so.

(Well it's still worthy, I guess. Something real nice and warm things did happen to me. So I guess the faithfulness can only be done with those who really appreciated you.)


Backstabbed once, twice, and I'll never forgive those who have done a third time.


My dear darling Elicia taught me that, like an experienced old captain. I wasn't so agree with her at first. Dreams are always better than reality, and I was so into it, deeply, unconsciously. It can all be my imaginations. I might be the worst friend ever to even doubt a good friend's act. But I'm enough with it, seriously. Doubting a person makes me tired.

I'm not sure if you'll feel me changing. I called less. I seemed less enthusiastic when you called. I'm not so sure if I'm gonna to hang out with you anymore.
I made new friends, too. But I never thought of abandon the old ones. We might hang out less, as this is more to natural rules of the world than bad intentions, but we shall appreciate every time we spent together. That shall not be changed!

Whining about, complaining and being sarcastic when we finally have time to hang out.. I tolerated everything, trying my best not to spoil the day.

My dear friend, you pushed me away. I did not intend to do so.

You're still my friend anyway, just no longer someone I'll pour my feelings to..