Time to say Goodbye?

I do think it's time for me to change my lifestyle, finally.
I have only a month left of holidays, it's really time to really grab some rest. 
So sleep earlier and wake up fresher?

Will be leaving the kids by Friday. I'll miss y'all!

I'm going to remember every moment spent with you kids:

Zi Hang (the cutest and most manja) who can hardly have a bite on the corn as he has no front teeth, hope your teeth will grow out soon;

Zi Yang please be more hardworking, and try to love your dear younger brother more? Ah and stop crying when given spelling tasks. You look just like Zi Hang, but you're nine and he's seven;

Joanne be a lil' less bossy? And smile wider when you're sent with those nice meals?

Ying Xuan mix well with your fiends, complain less and you'll gain more friends;

Ivy and Thompson continues your charm, but use them wisely, you'll still needa finish your works;

Evan be careful with your subtractions, those mistakes made are just ridiculous;

Chester and Jin Jiet grow taller (Jin Jiet yells less please!);

Zi Tao stop frowning and playing too much. As I told you before, you're actually a good kid;

Li Shen you're smart but don't brag. To concentrate is more important than anything. I'm training you for your future;

Jason Chang stop whining. Finish your work before playing. You've done well so what's the point whining?

Ah Jeff (Mr Wall without an echo) and Wei Long work harder eh. Hard works will be granted with success, as in return;

Zi Yuan good luck for your Olympia Maths Competitions And watch out kid, you're getting lazier;

Boon Keat improve your manner. It's so weird how a kid can be so adorable yet irritating at the same time;

Olivia don't mess with your hair. And take care of your health. No frying food while you're constantly having a nose bleed kay?

Ying Yee stop aiming my food. Haha anyways, you're the best kid in the class. Least annoying and acting good;

Yu Quan improve your Chinese please. And stop practicing violence towards your friend. Hope you got your durians soon;

Jason Tan stop being a blur king?

Sheng Hee thank you for stop crying (:

Jing Yi and Chong Xuan good luck for your study

And Jaydern, Yan Ern, Jason Khor, Hsin Ling, Jack, Yu Ze and dot dot dot (haha)

Thank you for those amazing moments, I learnt a lot!

And sorry if I ever hurt your feelings but I've done it for your own good. Sounds like a real teacher haha yea I'm brgging.

See you in the future?

Kids these days

Had a brief talk with my primary school teacher.

"Kids nowadays are real dependent and sorta passive."

We sighed.

Tiresome stuffs to be completed before enrollment.

The lazy feeling when you reread your previous posts and found out about those grammar mistakes that you've made.

轉念

應該是今天的第三篇了，好像之前停頓的那一段時間都硬要補回來似的。

但是想法這一類的東西，當下你不記錄，過一陣子是再也找不回來了的。

而有些心情，換了一個語言，反而很難表達清楚。

這一個月過得好快，但有那麼幾天，我覺得他好長好長。

也好久沒有痛痛快快的哭過了。

也不算是夢想，但就算只是一個被粉碎了的期望。

也一樣會讓人覺得很心痛。

上帝關了一你扇門，必會為你開啟另一扇窗。

只能這樣安慰自己了。

但我不喜歡這樣。

我不需要安慰，需要的是真正的，做到毫不猶疑的轉念。

不是委屈求全，而是欣然接受。

不是化悲憤為力量那麼偉大的事，但我想做到光明正大。

接受，是我花了好幾天才學會的事，經過了好幾番的侃侃而談才醒悟的事。

但我學會的還有好多好多。

不單只是接受，還要有一絲絲的勇氣與信心。

那幾天的心情，將成為我的經歷，就不要忘記吧。

沒一點血淚那不叫青春！

所有和我一起經歷這一切的朋友，你們永遠是我最珍貴的。
心從灰灰的色調轉成暖暖的顏色，小小的期望也重新燃起來了。
別訝異於我心靈的強大，你們不知道你們做了多偉大的事。
所以我也不該嗇於分享，
希望也有讓你們重新燃燒起來。

但那該死的政府，真的是

圈圈你個叉叉。

I Love You Malaysia!

Raya holidays are comin soon, and my holidays will end soon. And I'll be starting a new journey. So if you feel like missing me, do pay me a visit eh?

Then I shall be standing on a different piece of land.

The uneasy feeling when you arranged yourself a too-packed schedule and you're unable to finish all the tasks at once.

The joyful feeling when you multitasked and thought yourself successful and you think you did well.

Oh multitask madness is what we call this kinda feeling.

Well I'm certainly not the multitasking kinda people (: So I tried not to reply the message when I typed this entry and I shall stop pushing myself to finish all the subjects revisions at once.

Slow you pace down I guess? And I'd love to do so.

[giggles] Have a nice and reflective day!!

(Ideas from Readers' Digest's )

I have no idea why but it seems like posts and entries and articles everywhere kept reminding me from my recent lost of one very virtue friendship. Ah but not to relate it to any awkward situations I actually encountered recently. So before I even started the post, I'll have to claim that this has NOTHING to do with guys. So it's just basically some girl's problem.

(I'd like to quote my cousin here but I'm not sure if he'll like me to do so. All the words are just like a loud "BANG" in my head and I started to see things a lil' differently.)


Maybe it's always better to confess your feelings rather than hiding them.

Maybe it's just hard to see if the someone you held most preciously see you as precious as thee.


I'm confused. And I shall be confused. As you can never know accurately how others feel and think. I felt guilt, shameful and frustrated every time I doubted her intentions, whether all her acts are out of her consciousness, or vice versa. I precioused all my friends. I trusted them all and was never hesitant to expose the true me, never tried to hide myself. But some painful experiences just made me wonder, if it's always worthy to do so.

(Well it's still worthy, I guess. Something real nice and warm things did happen to me. So I guess the faithfulness can only be done with those who really appreciated you.)


Backstabbed once, twice, and I'll never forgive those who have done a third time.


My dear darling Elicia taught me that, like an experienced old captain. I wasn't so agree with her at first. Dreams are always better than reality, and I was so into it, deeply, unconsciously. It can all be my imaginations. I might be the worst friend ever to even doubt a good friend's act. But I'm enough with it, seriously. Doubting a person makes me tired.

I'm not sure if you'll feel me changing. I called less. I seemed less enthusiastic when you called. I'm not so sure if I'm gonna to hang out with you anymore.
I made new friends, too. But I never thought of abandon the old ones. We might hang out less, as this is more to natural rules of the world than bad intentions, but we shall appreciate every time we spent together. That shall not be changed!

Whining about, complaining and being sarcastic when we finally have time to hang out.. I tolerated everything, trying my best not to spoil the day.

My dear friend, you pushed me away. I did not intend to do so.

You're still my friend anyway, just no longer someone I'll pour my feelings to..

Stay Tuned. I'm not so organised right now.

It has been a while since I last written an entry. A lot have been gone through, for the last few months.

Some are good. Some are bad. Some are bad at first, and it turns out not so bad after all.
My thoughts changed, a lot.

Anyways, I'm not really here to talk about it, yet.

Anyways, life goes on. And we shall talk about it, maybe later?