原來有些東西，消失得莫名其妙。

哭不出來。

I'm not sure if it is just another wave of pms hitting

Sometimes people just do not understand how important emotional time out could mean to somebody. 

I do need some time to adjust myself towards your mode. I've been trying for quite sometimes but it seems like I have not yet get rid, or get through it. So some pieces in me became extra sensitive. They became untouchable, and emotions flood in once someone mention about it, or when something resurface. Being sentimental can be burdensome for others, and I have known it too well. So I'm going to handle this by myself this time, but I think it cannot be too soon until I finally forgive you, or shall I say, forgive myself.

I think I need a dead dustbin, not a living one.

I hope everyone around me, and including me of course, to stay happy and healthy.

Sometimes I'd rather shout out, "I hate you!" But I believe the truth is like, I cared too much. Nothing counts when something doesn't seem valuable in your eyes. So I admit that I cherish you. Supports are meant to be supportive, not emotional destructive. This might not be what you really mean, but you have already left something dark deep inside me. I've made myself some prototypes.

Let's shake hand in the future, and then I'll be more than happy to laugh at my stupidness now.

Sorry and thanks.

Hey mon cheri, after all those talks and little minds flying here and there, I think it is time for this to come to an end. Let set those things back to their places, so we are free to go now.

No more ace to play. Ah and there's no game btw fyi.

Yours truly,
Miss chuckles and smileys ~

Ah what are these late night babbling...

It doesn't require you to be real free to write an entry

It feels like years before I finally sit down and have the mood to write an entry again (:

So you're really getting some taste of what people named "an adult's busy life", LOL.

Have been scrolling back for my previous entries just now, and I'm happy to witness my growth and changes.

"Oh my those are lame," I can't help laughing while reading those old silly entries I've made like, in a year or two from now. And thank god, I see good changes.

There are still much more to be explored out there, but at least I've learned my first step, by stepping out of my usual zone of comfort, to new places; and opened my senses, for new experiences.

New choices in book genres, new places explored, and new challenges embraced.

I am just grateful that I was put in Sabah; and it has nothing close to "bad" at all.

I met people, and I met myself.

Well this photo will worth another entry itself to tell the story, but perhaps not today.

Thank you for bringing me in, for one. And thank you for being the other one in this, for another one (:

P/s: and I'm happy to have my dear Kelvin Koh constantly motivating me to keep the writing habit. Hah hope that you'll see this when you clicked in and read these next time *winked*.

And while we are sitting here comfortably writing or reading entries, pray for those in Nepal. 

I'm having something to tell, something to share... The night falls, save it for tomorrow...

When one of your best friend got himself a girlfriend, it means minus a someone who you can talk a lot to, oops! Hehe.

So I start kacau-ing others hehe (;

I love my friends~

Been meeting up with my friends, and some topics that I don't feel like talking about are being brought up. No answer from me peeps. To quote my cousin here, as he once told me, "it's like a game where I wait, you wait, everybody waits. Whilst it shouldn't be that way."

Still waiting.

The end if the story.

I feel like abandoning all those silly dreams (so just ignore my previous entry lol) and focus on the important stuffs. So what are the important stuffs?

To earn myself credits, credits for my future. Assets, I shall really be thinking about my personal assets now. What shall I possess to be competent later on in my life, and of how can I live my life to, if not the fullest, at least make good use of it. Efficiency, self discipline, ability (and that will include a brain seriously stuffed with tons of knowledge, and soft skills to be learned).

So instead of claiming that, "oh my I can't believe I'm a grown up now!" Dang it, you're twenty-one. So act like one.

No worries, things pop up in my mind sometimes in a boring afternoon. I just jotter it down so it'll stay (: